Expectation Fail

(c) 2011
by Trish Szymanski


And it is too familiar
this disappointing
hard wishing

i've dusted myself off again
and understand too clearly that it
has to go this way

so maybe this is what this has been for
for me to practice knowing
unequivocally
what i don't want

but still
because i love
i want so much for you

if only
i were the one
inside of you
doing the wanting